The holidays are so emotional for me. At times I am so happy, singing Christmas carols, crocheting things for people for Christmas, envisioning Christmas morning for my grandchildren and then I will swing the other way, hating not having family around due to divorces, distance and all the other problems that can occur during this time. Part of the time I am singing praises to God for all the blessings He has given me and then I am grumpy and sad by living alone. Fortunately the joy of this time is uppermost and the blues are passing in short bursts. It is still hard to believe that God would love us enough to send His only Son to die for us...we are the most ungrateful, selfish, self-absorbed creatures that He put on this earth. We trudge through this life asking, "What is in it for me?"
When I rededicated my life to Jesus and gave Him total control of my life, the "I" in my life became "others". The sorrow, sadness and unhappiness became joy, happiness and peace like I have never known before. Doing for others has made life fun and exciting, especially when they have no idea who did the deed. Sharing Christ with others became a joyful act rather than a "duty".
In two weeks I will be giving my testimony in front of our church....that I am nervous goes without saying, but at the same time I know that God will give me the right things to say when the time comes....after all, He works through me, not that I can accomplish anything without His help!
I hope and pray that anyone reading this post will find the peace and contentment that comes with giving your life to God's control. I tried to control my life for most of my life and I made a huge mess!
My 5 year old grandson, Christian, is in Ohio visiting his grandparents up there for Christmas....this is hard for me since I have him most of the time. He has been there since Thanksgiving and is having a great time so my missing him is pure selfishness on my part. Keeping busy isn't hard now so the time will pass quickly.
I have to get back to crocheting so I will add more later.