Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Time flies by!

It has been a while since I wrote in this blog...after Jill died I lost any interest in continuing on in here...she was the one who started me doing this. But I find it is always good to write down your thoughts and feelings so you can sort them out. So I pick up fingers once again and begin to type.

My granddaughter, Jenny, the one that was in a bad car accident at 16, that required two rods to be placed in her lower back, has moved in with me for the time being since she found herself pregnant. My first great grandson will be born some time in August. It has been heart warming to get to know her all over again as an almost adult. I had forgotten how every single thing that occurs in a teenagers life is extremely important and has to result in the most drama that can be derived from the situation. Peace is no longer an option around here but I must say that it is lively! No dull moments! Her birthday is Saturday and I wonder how that will go...she will be 19.

Our church is getting ready to move into the new building in June, I think, but our pastor'e wife, Terry, is really sick. The doctors don't seem to know what is going on. She falls with no discernable reason and hurts herself in the process. Terry remains unconscious for varying lengths of time. So she has been on bed rest for over a month now. We have been praying for God's healing and it will be done in His time. In the mean time I pray for the family as this is hard on the girls and Pastor Ken too. Many church members have been "taxi" service for the girls and companions for Terry. I wish my car would be reliable enough to help but I never know when it is going to quit all together on me.

The therapy on my right knee has been progressing well and it is getting stronger every day. The surgery for the left one is scheduled for the 29th of May. I am trying to figure out how to get a car to go to Columbia and daughter, Heather, will go and stay with me but we have no transportation. Judy and Peter, a wonderful christian couple, have been taking me down for the doctor visits but this is an undetermined amount of time and I hate to ask them to take me and then turn around in a few days and come back. Gas is too high and it would be an inconvenience. So I am trusting the Lord to come up with a solution.

This month has been a struggle and Murphy can take his law back and stop staying around me for a time. My computer, bathtub plumbing, clothes dryer and now the tv required repair. Unfortunately my small income is not geared to saving any money so I can pay for things like this. I need my ship to come in and for me to be at the dock!!!!!!

It is amazing how much $2000 would put me in much better shape. And my ex, who took off so he wouldn't pay my alimony, owes me $15,900...I could get a car!!! BUT HE IS STAYING IN NORTH CAROLINA TO AVOID THAT.

In spite of my unloading here, God is so good to me! I have a nice apartment, I am not starving, I have clothes on my back, wonderful doctors to take care of me, awesome friends that come through for me when I do get in a bind, great grandkids, children that come through for me when I need them, a brother who helps me every month to stay in this apartment, a mother who thinks of sweet things to get for me knowing I cannot afford to buy new stuff, and I could go on and on. So ignore my is just a way to get it out of my system and keep peaceful thoughts in my head.

I will close on that note and wish everyone a blessed day!

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Missing you!!!!

On the 8th of January God called Jill home. It is so strange not having her pop in all the time and not going to the Goodwill stores....she isn't pointing that "mommy" finger at me when I do something stupid....38 is so young to leave this earth but at least she isn't suffering any more! The last few weeks were so hard for her!
Jill's mom, best friend Michele, sister Katie and family all got down here to see her while she was still able to know they were here. I am so glad for her. Plus she gave her life to Jesus a few weeks ago so I know she is in heaven with her beloved grandmother and all her pets.
We had the sweetest memorial service here at home for her...Pastor Ken led the service for all of us...there were about 30 people packed in my small apartment but it was just enough room. We all got to tell how Jill impacted each of our lives...I know if she had been here she would have loved it! It was quirky enough for the wakes that used to be held at home.
Jill and I had become so close in the last year...we spent almost all our time together either shopping (her favorite past time), crocheting (her newest hobby), watching tv or just talking. I told her frequently she was my adopted daughter...I loved her as one. She finally got used to being hugged all the time....touching was not natural to her. Her passing has left a big hole in my life and sadness in my heart. But she would not like me being sad all the time (out would come the mommy finger) so I try to just remember all the good times we had and the special relationship we shared.

Well, today I get the cast off the right leg...WOOWOO!!! A long shower is in my immediate future! Now comes the hard part....getting the knee strong so I can get the left one fixed...just so much fun!!! Judy and Peter are taking me to Columbia...long boring ride but it is more fun when several people go and we can talk.

Christian is recovering from a touch of pneumonia associated with his asthma. He is a little trooper...just goes on with a smile! Love that boy!

Tore is getting a new job for a while...she will be in security on base calling for earlier starting time but also earlier getting off time. Gizzy, her puppy, is growing and becoming quite a little lady! She obeys Tore and is getting trained to go out and to get in her kennel. Her pictures are so cute!!!

Jordan and Sydney are doing better in school this year and have quite the social lives...Sydney always has had one! She was so good in her play at school...had the lead part! That is what she wants to do in her she is getting training now.

Jenny, Heather's middle girl, has moved in with me for a while. She will have a baby in August and needed some peace and quiet. She is working at Subway for as long as she can. Due to the back surgery after the car accident she was in this will be a high risk pregnancy. It is good to have someone here to keep me company...she helps me out and I help her for us!

I will close for now with these thoughts....I am so blessed with the friends that I have, the Bible study group ( my Sisters), the church family and my own family (especially my brother, James). They have rallied around me for weeks now and continue to keep me supplied with food and phone calls.
God is good, all the time!!!!